The lives we've lead.

Daddy, put down that bottle. Talk to me, listen to me. Be that man I once had - the one who I could always count on to make me smile.

Daddy, give me those keys. You're not safe enough to drive. Be that man that used to walk with me for miles.

Daddy, be careful what you say to me. Your words can cut like knives. Be that man on the sailboat, sailing into the safety of the golden horizon.

Mommy, wipe your tears from your pretty face. It's getting hard to be so strong. Fill my ears with your infectious laughter.

Mommy, don't be so hard on yourself, it's killing you. You're disappearing as the days pass - be that woman who asks for a countdown before you jump into the safety of the water.

Mommy, put those down. You don't need so many. Stop hiding behind artificial happiness. Be that woman I once knew.

Mommy, please forgive me for being a hypocrite. 

Brother, you're so lucky. You've become a ghost to my life, appearing only when called. Who knew a ghost could be a girls best friend?

Brother, you are not my father. Look past this mirage you see of me - I'm sorry that I am not who you want me to be. 

The boy who broke my heart - remain oblivious. Remain everything I want, continue the hurt. The who loves me and the one whom I love are not the same person... I'm sorry.

Family first always. Keep living your fake lives. Drunk lives. Amazing lives. Sheltered lives. And I'll continue living the life unknown.

Self, draw those images to stop the shaking, don't stop. Pop that happiness, that safety - keep counting, it's just another day.

Daddy, put down that bottle now.